F.E.A.R- False Evidence Appearing Real? Or… Is it a sign? (Minor Rant)

We all experience fear in one form or another.

The fear of failure...

The fear of success...

The fear of living up to society's expectations...

The fear of not living up to society's expectations...

Take social media, for example... Do you know how long I have been trying to live up to the hype? The hype of, you have to post every day to be successful. The hype that your videos have to be perfect for you to have or achieve a following.

Like our leaders are far.. and I mean FAR... from perfect, why the fuck should we be racing against a clock to be fucking perfect? Who is perfect?

Like really think about it... Who the fuck is perfect?

Take Leonardo da Vinci... he was a perfectionist and had one hell of a curiosity... painted and finished the Monalisa, The Last Supper, and Lady with an Ermine... but as to how many unfinished works... he had at least 20 last counted... look it up and quote me if I am wrong... I googled.. I know, Google ain't so trustworthy nowadays. I am writing circa 2026, the evening of March 27th, so you can only imagine the information I am up against.

Nothing worse than fear caused by trauma, I'll tell you that much... but that's a topic for another day. Here, we ease into such subjects. Take this as a relationship from the 50s evolving. We are getting to know each other little by little.

Anyways, where were we? Oh yes, Social fucking media and how it has completely poisoned our way of living and our judgment of time and life itself.

When was the last time you thought 24 hours was enough time in a day?

Exactly.

Just today I planned to go to Lowe's, Walmart, then back to Michael's for more transfer tape, make some candles for the business, try cutting glass again, and then prep dinner (chicken thighs, bacon-wrapped asparagus, and corn)... ask me what I got done.

Lowes, and dinner.

It's 10:10 pm, and I haven't done any of the rest. So that has now turned into yet another to-do on the longest catch-up list known to man. But according to my sources, everything in its due time, God knows why things happen, the universe is working for you- not against you, etc., etc.

What I'm trying to say after all that rambling is this: it does not matter how long it takes, or how many times you try, down how many avenues you go, as long as you keep going. As long as you wake up with a new drive to try and try again, I think that is what counts the most.

If you're there, I applaud you; it takes a lot to get there in the first place.

Don't give up. Keep pushing forward. You are not behind. You are exactly where you need to be in your own timeline.

I love you. We are here together.